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Thank You Starbucks

2365380736_3bd420ce3fI have been wanting to post this for a while now but when you are working full-time, going to school full-time, marriage, and dealing with a serious illness in the family – well, it is hard to do the small things.

I wanted to give a big shout out and a huge thank you to the Starbucks staff on the corner of Fulton Avenue and Cottage Way in Sacramento.  The reason why?  My Mom.  My Mom is currently battling stage 3 Melanoma cancer where there are not any good treatments for her i.e., no Interferon and offered her to be in a ‘case study’ where she may or may not get a placebo.  So it is a 50/50 wait and see game at this point.  Scary? The answer is yes.

While our Mom was in the hospital, we discovered that she had kept some of the Starbucks clear cups (they were cleaned of course) with kind words written on them to my Mom.  We asked our Mom after her surgery what the deal was with these cups?  I want to let you all know my Mom is a kind woman who can make friends with ANYONE.  She has the gift of gab.  Well – apparently this is a really nice crew that works at this location and apparently Mom had developed a friendships with several of the staff.

Once we got Mom home, and she was cleared for coffee drinks (no sugar at first) – either I or my two sisters would go get her drinks.  My experience was ordering the drink and the gal behind the counter said “Is this for Suzanne?”  They knew I was getting Mom’s drink but were confused about why there was no sugar being ordered.  It was at that point during several Starbucks visits that either I or the sisters would advise the Starbucks crew of Mom’s status. We would bring Mom’s drinks home, let Mom know they missed her etc.  You would think that I would have looked at the cups post surgery….but I have been so out of my mind on Cancerwatch, so there is that.

Well, I finally did and I have to say – the staff wrote some of the most kind, uplifting and positive words to my Mom on those cups.  The staff at Starbucks took the time of their busy workday to communicate to my Mom since she could drive until literally this weekend.  They didn’t have to do it, but they did.  It meant the world to Mom and I really think it helped her knowing they were rooting for her.

Again a big thank you to the Fulton Avenue/Cottage Way crew.  It really meant a lot to Mom and to myself and sisters as well.  Big props to the Sacramento Starbucks crew.

K.G.

**Don’t forget to wear sunscreen daily people**

Personal Stories

Marlboro Country

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By MyEyeSees

Boy, I can tell you all that quitting smoking is the most difficult thing I’ve ever done.  I had to stop.  “People” say that at day 3 it’s out of your system.  Well, that’s a bullshit lie.  I am still coughing up a lung or two.  Food still doesn’t taste right and I have this horrific metallic taste in my mouth this morning.  God only knows why.

I smoked for a variety of different reasons (excuses).  I started after I had found out my ex-husband was having an extra-marital affair with a Phlebotomist.  LOL…okay, good choice Dear.  That was over, gosh 12 or 13 years ago.  It kept my weight down.  Of course, then I had to provide for my son on my own.  I didn’t want any ties or money held over my head by a man.  I am a strong-willed woman and don’t like the “man divorce power trip.”  Ever.   So that stress kept me smoking.  The job kept me smoking.  Going out with others kept me smoking.  The dogs kept me smoking….I am joking.  Any excuse that I could come up with….well I would use it.

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Kelly Garland

Here’s the crux of it all.  It’s my best friend and I miss it.  I miss my Marlboro Man boyfriend.  Mr. Black Menthol shorts.  I know that sounds so horrifically sick and stupid, but it’s true.  I liked waking up early in the morning, with my cup of Joe and the Marlboro man.  To sit in peace for 20 minutes while I smoked 3 or 4 (NO JOKE) to piece out my day.  Yep, that’s me.  On my breaks at work, to run away from the ever present ringing of the phone for 15 minutes to breathe (HA HA) and have a toke was awesome.  Lunchtime!  Yes, after I ate – immediately.  Dinner too.  Blogging and smoking is my favorite thing to do….it’s like being in 1970’s newspaper office.  Ahhhhh…..refreshing.  Yes, I know.  Bad Kelly.  Bad.

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By Marionzetta

Now I don’t know what to do with myself.  I’ve re-arranged the garage.  The crap under the sink.  The dogs cabinet – of course my babies have a cabinet!  Cleaned the house, done the laundry.  Today is wash the car, donate at Goodwill, try to read by Bible for solace and then what?  Dear lord!  It’s maddening.  (Cough).  Yes, Husband…the gym is on the list too.  Now this will make him mad as hell.  I am hardly eating.  I am TERRIFIED of gaining weight because that’s what happens.  People who quit smoking cram food into their mouths.  I am avoiding go to the store, or a restaurant because I will probably order the whole God Damned menu.  My girlfriend who quit last year gained 15 pounds.  I refuse to do it.  Maybe I will take up Anorexia instead?  I am kidding….I like black humor.

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By porschelinn
Porsche Brosseau

At this point, I am rambling.  That’s another thing that happens when you quit smoking.  YOU LOSE YOUR MIND for a few days.  I know I am.  The slightest things are just the last nerve for me.  I am literally on a thread.  I feel bad for the person who cuts me off in traffic today or the inconsiderate boob who comes into my path.  Seriously….it’s bad.  Thank god I have fiberglass nails or else the bone would show through from biting my nails to the quick.

I know in the long run…it’s best for me.  No more harassment by my Mother, co-workers and friends.  However, I will not lie….I do miss riding the horse in Marlboro Country.  Giddy-up!

Personal Stories

Trip to the health food store.

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By las – initially

Sigh. I have finally come to the realization that my shapely physique has gotten TWO HUNDRED PERCENT out of control.  I hate looking in the mirror at times unless it is from the neck up.  Okay, to be fair….I can carry it well to some certain respects.  I don’t look like a basketball.  I actually still have an hour-glass figure BUT it’s the displacement of said fat in certain areas that I am not thrilled with.  I acknowledge that my habits have contributed to said shape.  Here’s a typical day:

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By Moira_Fee

Breakfast: 4 cups of coffee, about 4 cigarettes and if I am lucky – I might eat the Special K Breakfast sandwiches (it’s a rarity).

Lunch:  Anything that is a left over from dinner the night before.  Might have an apple and cottage cheese.

Afternoon Snack:  Whatever chip, candy that I can find in the office.

Dinner: Meat, potatoes, rice, maybe a veggie, Taco Bell, Pizza, Cheeseburger (with mushrooms – Ah Health!) and fries.  Of course not all in the same day…but still.

I tend to like Ice Cream….that’s a biggie too.  😦

So after listening to someone I love very much tell me – you’re going to die if you don’t do something about this….ALONG WITH EVERY DOCTOR I’VE EVER MET….I said, “Okay, tonight it’s not crap.  I must find something healthy.  I really don’t have a choice.  Here is another problem (excuse – feel free to use any word).  I absolutely HATE to cook.  I despise with every ounce of my being in my heart.  Prep food?  Me?  HA!  Hate that too.  I would rather clean a toilet than cook, period.   So this isn’t helping me much, right?  Yep.

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Kelly Garland

I decide to get in my car and try to find something healthy.  I wanted to go to the Kabob place I love but I knew I would buy A TON of rice, meat and not much else.  I decided on Panera.  Ordering was a nightmare.  You know, Panera puts the calories next to EVERYTHING.  It’s a reminder: “Don’t order that!  Look at those calories FATTY!”  I opted for the Fuji Chicken Salad with no dressing.  Waaaa!  No dressing!  What is this world coming to?  I bit the bullet.

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Kelly Garland

Afterwards, I saw Sprouts.  I thought maybe I can pick up a late night snack that is okay for me to eat.  I looked like a BULL IN A CHINA SHOP.  What a disaster.  I wandered which seemed like forever. I talked to a grocery guy who DIDN’T KNOW what gluten-free was.  Are you kidding me?  You work at SPROUTS.  After shaking my head in absolute disbelief, I picked up gluten-free “Food Should Taste Good” Olive tortilla chips.  Well, I just noticed while writing they were tortilla chips and I hate those kind.  Sigh. I will eat them.  I am sure they are tasty.  I hope so.

I plan to share my dive into dieting, my lack of experience of food health and exercise with all of you to stay real.  Not to lie.  If I cheat one day, I will admit it.  I am sure I am going to have days where I will think that “The Biggest Loser” show is the devil in disguise.  Hopefully the days will not be many. *Fingers crossed* I hope you all wish me luck because I know I am going to need it.

P.S.  I officially need a chaperone while shopping for food.  How sad.

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By gruntzooki
Cory Doctorow