Sigh. I have finally come to the realization that my shapely physique has gotten TWO HUNDRED PERCENT out of control. I hate looking in the mirror at times unless it is from the neck up. Okay, to be fair….I can carry it well to some certain respects. I don’t look like a basketball. I actually still have an hour-glass figure BUT it’s the displacement of said fat in certain areas that I am not thrilled with. I acknowledge that my habits have contributed to said shape. Here’s a typical day:
Breakfast: 4 cups of coffee, about 4 cigarettes and if I am lucky – I might eat the Special K Breakfast sandwiches (it’s a rarity).
Lunch: Anything that is a left over from dinner the night before. Might have an apple and cottage cheese.
Afternoon Snack: Whatever chip, candy that I can find in the office.
Dinner: Meat, potatoes, rice, maybe a veggie, Taco Bell, Pizza, Cheeseburger (with mushrooms – Ah Health!) and fries. Of course not all in the same day…but still.
I tend to like Ice Cream….that’s a biggie too. 😦
So after listening to someone I love very much tell me – you’re going to die if you don’t do something about this….ALONG WITH EVERY DOCTOR I’VE EVER MET….I said, “Okay, tonight it’s not crap. I must find something healthy. I really don’t have a choice. Here is another problem (excuse – feel free to use any word). I absolutely HATE to cook. I despise with every ounce of my being in my heart. Prep food? Me? HA! Hate that too. I would rather clean a toilet than cook, period. So this isn’t helping me much, right? Yep.
I decide to get in my car and try to find something healthy. I wanted to go to the Kabob place I love but I knew I would buy A TON of rice, meat and not much else. I decided on Panera. Ordering was a nightmare. You know, Panera puts the calories next to EVERYTHING. It’s a reminder: “Don’t order that! Look at those calories FATTY!” I opted for the Fuji Chicken Salad with no dressing. Waaaa! No dressing! What is this world coming to? I bit the bullet.
Afterwards, I saw Sprouts. I thought maybe I can pick up a late night snack that is okay for me to eat. I looked like a BULL IN A CHINA SHOP. What a disaster. I wandered which seemed like forever. I talked to a grocery guy who DIDN’T KNOW what gluten-free was. Are you kidding me? You work at SPROUTS. After shaking my head in absolute disbelief, I picked up gluten-free “Food Should Taste Good” Olive tortilla chips. Well, I just noticed while writing they were tortilla chips and I hate those kind. Sigh. I will eat them. I am sure they are tasty. I hope so.
I plan to share my dive into dieting, my lack of experience of food health and exercise with all of you to stay real. Not to lie. If I cheat one day, I will admit it. I am sure I am going to have days where I will think that “The Biggest Loser” show is the devil in disguise. Hopefully the days will not be many. *Fingers crossed* I hope you all wish me luck because I know I am going to need it.
P.S. I officially need a chaperone while shopping for food. How sad.